Entry: Roller Coaster Saturday, April 28, 2007



   I've found that life is a giant rollercoaster. It's ups and downs hit when you least expect them. You go up and up and you're on top of everything. You feel like no one can touch you. That you're absolutely invincable. That nothing in the world can go wrong.

   But then you start to fall and you go and go until you feel like you can't do anything to stop it. Everything comes crashing down around you. You try to put it back together but you've lost all control. Those are the hard days.

   The thing about roller coasters is that they always go back up. The just keep going up and down. And eventually they end and you have to get off. Just by the time you are starting to get used to the profound ups and downs, just when you're starting to relax and enjoy it, you have to get off.

   That's the way life is. It's a wild series of ups and downs. If you don't enjoy those ups and downs, evenutally you've missed it. It's too late to go back and enjoy those moments. You miss it.

   So when things get scary and tough and you feel like you can't stop the falling, you have to remember that the rollercoaster always goes back up. That's what I use to get through those crazy rollercoaster days.
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lesterbangs
April 29, 2007   03:59 PM PDT
 
I find it almost scary that this is virually the exact post I was planning to make.

I was going to call it "Cycles".

I may have said before that I am normally a very even-keeled person. Over mostly the last 12 months, I have experienced circumstances that brought about more anger, depression, stress and hurt than I have known in my life to date. I knew that I had lost perspective. I could have reacted nonconstructively such that I would still be stuck in the pit.

But I chose patience and endurance. I really took a blind leap of faith that somehow, beyond my understanding, the cycle would turn and I would find peace again. I had no idea how to get from where I was to where I wanted to be. So I just endured.

And now, the cycle has turned. Healing is taking place. Joy is returning. The summer promises to bring even more hope.

I am not sure why I have never experieced this sort of thing before. It's very possible that I have gone out of my way to insulate myself from people. I am, by nature a loner. I really avoided the ups and downs that came from interacting with people.

I have heard it said that we can't truly experience joy if we have not experienced pain first. I must say, now that I am on the upside of the cycle, life is much more enjoyable.

I need to finish writing the details of my last year while it's fresh in my mind so that I, and hopefuly other can learn from it.

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