For as long as I can remember my mother has complained about how her mother turned into her mother and how one day she would trun into my grandmother, which could only mean that one day, I would be my mother.

What a scary thought.

So for as long as I can remember I've been saying,"The very last thing I want is to grow up and be my mother."

It just seemed natural for me to fear becoming my mother.

However, the more and more I watch her and the older I get, it seems like maybe it wouldn't be so bad. The typical everyday housewife. The unsung hero of the world. The unrecognized wonderwoman.

I've always wanted to be extrordinary. More then just another one of the mediocre suburban masses. That's all I see my life as right now, another part of the teenage suburban mass. I wanted to grow up, and get as far away from here to start over.

However, mediocrity seems like a good idea right now.

When you want to blend in, to disappear and start over mediocrity seems like the best way to do it.

Maybe I'll try that for a little while

Let's try to blend in and see how much I stick out.